I'm sitting at home in the dark and I feel lost. This isn't what I intend for my blog to become. Sporadic posts some relating to fashion and others not but I feel like I don't have anywhere else to turn to. I hate it when I have these moments of self doubt. I feel like I'll never make it in anything that I do. Like I don't have a true calling in my life and I'll end up dying alone and with a job that has never made me happy regardless of the amount of money that I make.

I don't want to become a slave to the grind (excuse the hackneyed expression) but in times like these it seems like I don't have any other choice. I don't know what to do now or ever but in a sense that's what life is supposed to be about. The thing about that is, I like to know what I'm supposed to do and what's going to happen. Life is a game that I'll never will but I can always try to succeed and I think that's what it's supposed to be about. 

You're not supposed to win at life,  no one is. But as long as you tried you've made your life worth living whether it be commemorated with a festival, a holiday, or a plaque, as long as you tried and tried and were happy in the process, that's what life is supposed to be about. There's no point in living life if you're not going to try and have fun in it. Do what makes you happy and screw everything else. That's what I try to live like everyday but I can never get it right. I'm always a jump to late or a word too late. 

I'm trying though. I'm trying with all my might. I don't want to feel like this anymore. Because I can succeed, and I will succeed, I believe that I can. I won't be another person waiting to die in their sleep. I want to face the world with hands out open. Willing to receive anything and everything that it's willing to give me whether it be good or bad. I don't care about whatever is holding me down anymore. I will be happy and nobody can take that from me. I will be healthy. I will be careful. I will be carefree. I will feel every emotion that I can possibly feel and I'll be okay with that. I'm going to be okay and so are you. 

We're going to make it. I promise you that. 

"Wooden Heart" - Listener

This is the song that changed my view on so many different things and I hope that it does the same for you. 

-Jasmine